That Lonely Hotel Room

I'm staring out the sliding glass door, the one that leads to the balcony

I want to step out, breathe fresh air,

But if I do, will that breath be my last?

In this Lonely Hotel Room

The walls of this room disguise themselves as a place of hope and wonder,

But the stench that lingers reveals what lives inside these walls

The smell of mistakes and consequences, broken hearts and broken dreams

A place that the happy long to be,

But the lonely fear to stay

A place the happy want to go,

But the lonely wish to leave

In this Lonely Hotel Room

A room meant for family

A king bed, two queens, a pullout couch

Many towels, pillows, blankets, all the family needs

But I'm the only one here now

One pillow, one bed, one blanket, one towel, one reason is all I need

In this Lonely Hotel Room

I begin to question if these rooms were made for happy families,

Or for rock bottoms

Is this the Story of my Life? One

One room, one family, one choice

One decision, one mistake, one regret

One Lonely Hotel Room

It's only one, right?

One person, one life, one ruined

So why are there more?

Lives, families, friends, all damaged

There are others here with me, no choice,

In This Lonely Hotel Room

But then why do I tell myself it's only me?

Only me that will go through the sliding glass door

Only me that will leave, only me that will feel it, only me that will care

I don't know if anyone will be there, closing the sliding glass door

I don't know if I deserve anyone, to close it before I cross the final threshold

He was right, all along

Be careful of those Lonely Hotel Rooms