To Be Loved

The room is full of people. Some of them I know, some of them I don't . I'm lost in the crowd. Just standing and waiting. Your friends are in one corner all talking. They wave at me, but I stay where I am. Your family is in the other corner waiting for as well. They come talk to me before going back to where they were to wait for you. The rest of the room is full of people from the past. Exes, childhood friends, old flings, old crushes, people I have never met. I'm lost in the crowd. I feel the grip around my bhest. Feel my throat start to close. You'll never find me here. There are too many people. You'll see freinds or family first. One of your old falmes will get to you before me. Why would you see me?? Why would you look for me?? Why would you pick me?? The room is so crowded. I feel my throat burn and eyes water. I decide to leave, but it is too late. You walk in. I stare at you. Wanting you to see me. Wanting to go up to you, but I can't move my feet. Why me?? You make eye contact with your family and wave, but move on. Who are you looking for?? You wave at your frineds and tell them "hold on" and move on. You start to make your way around the room. My stomach drops as I realize you're looking for someone. Who?? I want to call out, but my voice won't work. I watch and watch and watchn until I see it. Your eyes light up almost with tears. You smile so wide you could count your teeth. You begin to run towards him. It's happened. You chose. You found who you wanted. You run to him and basically jump in his arms and throw your arms around him. Yo ugive him the biggest hug. You kiss his lips. You tell him you miss him. You chose. Then it hits me. The arms you jumped in are mine. The neck your arms are hugging is mine. The lips you kissed are mine. The person you missed was me. You chose. You chose me. Despite it all, despite the crowd...You. Chose. Me.